潛藏深海的邂逅的論文

潛藏深海的邂逅的論文原文佚名fourdaysaftermymotherdiediwent1〕scubadivingforthefirsttime.indirectly，itwasherdeaththatledmetotakeupdivinginthefirstplace.goingunderwaterseemedlikeawaytodisplacetheemotional2〕hatalternative，liquidworldifoundfreedomand3〕tranquillity，mixedwithexcitementandthestimulationofdiscovery.thatobsessionbecamethefocusofmylife：imovedcountriesandjobssothaticoulddiveregularlyinwarmtropicalwater.itookmywifeandthree-month-olddaughtertoasmallislandwheresurfacelifeposedmanychallenges：practical，financial，emotionalandspiritual.goingunderwaterkeptus4〕sane，andallotherproblemsweresubordinatedtotheshortbutfrequentdosesof5〕euphoriadeliveredbytheocean.[論文網(wǎng)]almost15yearsaftermymother’sdeath，iwasthesolepassengeronaseaplaneovertheindianoceanwhenmyfatherdied.welandedina6〕lagoonwherea7〕rubber8〕dinghycollectedmeandferriedmetoalargerboatwhereiwastospendaweekcruisingtheouter9〕atollsofthe10〕maldives，divingfourtimesaday.mobilephonesdidnotreachtothatpartoftheislandsatthetime，butthecruiserwasequippedwithasatellitephone.asicarriedmyluggagetomycabin，iwassummonedtothebridge.onanechoing，staticlinemywifebrokethenews.beforeicouldaskforanydetails，theconnectionwasbrokenandiwasunabletospeaktoanyoneintheoutsideworldforanotherfivedays.theshockwasimmense.butiwassurroundedbypeople—ship’sofficers，divingstaffandahandfulofotherpassengers—noneofwhomihadmetbefore.therewasnopointintryingtoreturnhome，andihadnomeansofreachinganymembersofmyfamily.idecidedthattherewasnooneaboardtheboatinwhomicouldconfide.itseemedrudetoimposemygriefonstrangerswhowouldinevitablyfeelawkwardatthesituation.mylosswasapainful，privatewoundthatcouldnotbeexposed.twohourslateriwasinmydivingkit，sittingonthesideoftheboatreadytoplunge.thediveleaderexplainedthatwewereheadingtoa11〕reef12〕promontorythatwassweptbyastrongcurrent.weweretofollowhim，swimmingasquicklyaspossibletothedeepestpartofthereef，about36metresdown.thespeedofdescentwasmeanttokeepthecurrentfromforcingusapart.iwaslastintothewater，andifollowedastreamofsilverbubblesintothemistygrey-bluedepths.halfwaydownicouldalreadyseetheotherdiversclutchingontothereeftosteadythemselves.surroundingthemweredozensofgreyreefsharks，theobjectofthedive.keenasiwastojointhem，ipaused，sensingapresencebehindme.13〕swivellinginthewaterandlookingbacktowardsthepalesurfaceofthesea，istaredintotheeyesofanoceangiant：asailfish.iabandonedmydescentandfinnedtowardsthelurkingpresence.forafewmomentsthegiantfishhungthere，suspendedlikea14〕mountedtrophy.itwasthekindofencounterthatissoimmediateandthrillingthattimeandactionseemcompressed.fornomorethanfiveorsixsecondswewatchedoneanother，thenthesailfishshimmered，sideways，downwards，blendingagainintothedarkerwaterbeyondmyvision.noneoftheotherdiverssawmyencounter，thoughthediveleaderdid，andwetalkedaboutitprivatelythatnight.iwantedhisaffirmationthatiandthesailfishhadreallyjustbeenmetresapart.ididnot，couldnot，tellhimaboutmyfather.ihavehadhundredsofspecialunderwaterexperiences，butihaveneveragainseenasailfishunderwater.iknowfromotherdivemastersthatsuchencountersarerare.icannotshaketheideathat，formanypeopleonearth，thiswouldhavebeenaclearexampleofshape-shifting：myfather’sonlyopportunitytosaygoodbye.myfatherwasnota15〕spiritualman.indeed，herevelledindenyingtheexistenceofgod—partly，ithink，inorderto16〕infuriatemymotherwho，frankly，believedineverything.andyet，howstrange，inthehoursanddaysfollowingthelossofbothofmyparents，thatiwasabletobeunderwater，theplacewhereiamhappiest.ifeltblessedbythat.mymotherhaddiedwithouteverseeingmediscoverthispleasure.wheniwasayoungadult，sheworriedconstantlythatiwasunhappy.ihopeshewouldhavebeenpleasedthatihaddiscoveredsomethingthatgrippedmewithsuchdeepjoy.dadlivedlongenoughtowitnesssomeofmyunderwaterlife.andyethishabitwastodenyspirituality，todenyfaith，todenyanysentimentality.butif17〕reincarnation，perhapsmomentary，asasailfishwashisroutetowishingmefarewell，ihopeitcamewithasenseofacceptance：thatallshallbewell.itakemydeadparentswithmestill，everytimeidive.mysenseswereill-suitedtounderstandingthedarkdepths.icannotsaywhatpassedbetweenus，butashecircledmeatasteadydistanceheinspectedmeclosely，unhurriedandcalmwithaneyethatsignalledintelligence.ihaveneverforgottentheintensityofthatgaze，andmyownjoyandawe.母親去世四天后，我第一次嘗試了輕便潛水。11665.com間接地，是母親的離世促使我初次嘗試潛水。潛入水下似乎成了我擱置悲慟愁緒的一種方式。這很快成為了我的執(zhí)念。在那異于尋常的水世界里，我找到了自由和平靜，混雜著興奮和探索的刺激。那個(gè)執(zhí)念成為了我生活的焦點(diǎn)：我換了一個(gè)又一個(gè)國家和工作，只為時(shí)?？梢栽跍嘏臒釒ШＱ笾袧撍?。我?guī)е拮雍腿齻€(gè)月大的女兒來到了一個(gè)小島，在那里，陸上的生活帶來了不少挑戰(zhàn)：日常雜事、金錢開支、情感掙扎、精神困擾。潛入水下能讓我們保持理智，所有其他難題都敵不過海洋給我注入的一劑劑短暫但頻繁的歡樂強(qiáng)心針。近乎母親離世15年后，我的父親也去世了，那時(shí)我作為一架水上飛機(jī)里的唯一乘客在印度洋上翔行。我們降落在一個(gè)環(huán)礁湖上，然后一只橡皮艇來接我，將我送到一艘更大的船上。在這艘船上我將待上一周的時(shí)間環(huán)游馬爾代夫的外環(huán)，每天潛水四次。那時(shí)候，移動(dòng)電話的訊號還未布及島嶼的那個(gè)部分，但是游船上配備了衛(wèi)星電話。我剛把行李送到船艙，就又被叫到了船橋上。在一通回音噪聲重重的衛(wèi)星電話里，妻子把那消息告訴了我。我還未來得及問任何細(xì)節(jié)，通話就斷了，而我在后面的五天里都沒能和外界任何人說上話。這個(gè)沖擊是巨大的。雖然身邊有著眾人相伴——游船的船員、潛水員還有一小批其他乘客——全是陌生人。折返回家是不可能的，也沒有任何聯(lián)系到家人的方法。我認(rèn)定船上沒有一個(gè)人是我的訴苦對象。把我的痛苦強(qiáng)加于陌生人似乎不大禮貌，在那種情況下，他們總會(huì)難免尷尬。我的喪親之痛是個(gè)痛苦、私密的傷口，無法向外人展露。兩小時(shí)后，我穿戴上潛水裝備，坐在船邊，準(zhǔn)備下水。潛水領(lǐng)隊(duì)交待說我們將前往一個(gè)暗礁岬，那里水流急速。我們將跟著他，盡可能快地游到暗礁最深的那個(gè)部分，大約36米深?？焖傧聺撌菫榱朔乐顾鲗⑽覀円唤M人沖散。我是最后一個(gè)潛入水中的，追隨著一連串銀色氣泡潛入那片迷蒙灰藍(lán)的深海中。在下潛的中途，我已經(jīng)能看到其他潛水員在抓緊礁石以固定自己了。在他們的周圍，有幾十條灰礁鯊，那正是我們這次潛水的目標(biāo)。盡管我渴望加入他們，但是我停住了，因?yàn)槲腋杏X到自己身后有個(gè)東西。我在水中轉(zhuǎn)過身，回過頭看那片暗淡的海面，發(fā)現(xiàn)我正盯著一個(gè)海洋巨物的雙眼：旗魚。我放棄了繼續(xù)下潛，而是游向了那條在身后虎視眈眈的旗魚。有好一會(huì)兒，那條巨魚只是懸在那里，像是一個(gè)被裱好的戰(zhàn)利品。這種偶遇是如此的突然和令人興奮，時(shí)間和動(dòng)作似乎都被壓縮了。我們僅僅對視了五六秒，然后那條旗魚就閃著微光，向一旁的下方游去，融入了在我視線以外的更為黑暗的深海里。其他潛水員都沒有看到我這次偶遇，除了領(lǐng)隊(duì)，那晚我們私下聊起了這件事兒。我與那條旗魚相距真的只有幾米遠(yuǎn)，我希望得到他的確定。我沒有，也不能，告訴他關(guān)于我父親的事。我有過成百上千次的水中奇遇，但我卻再也沒有在水下見過一條旗魚。我從其他潛水老手那兒得知，那樣的偶遇是罕見的。我無法擺脫那種想法，我覺得對于塵世的很多人來說，這就是寄身托魂的一個(gè)典型例證：我父親僅有的道別機(jī)會(huì)。我的父親并非什么虔誠信徒。的確，他總喜歡否認(rèn)上帝的存在——在我看來，在一定程度上，那是為了激怒我的母親，實(shí)話講，我母親什么都信。然而，奇怪的是，在失去雙親之后的時(shí)日里，我能潛入水下，在那兒，我才是最快樂的